About Me

Hi there!

My name is Nanthaphon but I pretty much only respond to Gup. I don't think I've ever been comfortable with my name, almost as if it doesn't fit me. I was always teased for it as a kid because in my home country, "Gup" means frog. My real name "Nanthaphon" sounded much prettier but everybody strictly always goes by their nickname.

Then when I migrated to the UK, both Nanthaphon and Gup sounded "weird." People I encountered either pronounced it wrong or didn't know how to say it at all. Kids who grew up being teased for their names and having their name called out wrong in the register will understand. I touch on this topic because our names play a massive role in self-identity, so it says something about me when I introduce myself and I get embarrassed to tell people my name.

For a majority of my life, I have always had this hanging sense of dysphoria; my face didn't feel like it was my face, I didn't identify with my name, I didn't feel connected to my family or people in my life (and sometimes even with myself). I thought it was my teenage angst acting up and I would grow out of it. But I felt like that before I was met with the chemicals of entering adolescence and occasionally I still feel it day-to-day.

In the past year, I have grown and learned a lot. Both about the world I'm in and also about me as a person. This blog will be my little home as I continue to get comfortable with myself. I'm on a journey of self-improvement and I hope you enjoy this journey with me. I'll take you along with me as I find the best bargains, life lessons I've learned, and the general life updates. I hope you enjoy your stay here!

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